scream

I try to go outside there thinking everything’s okay
Hoping to make people believe that nothing’s wrong today
They can only see happiness through my eyes
Everyday I’m getting better, making them believe in lies

Sometimes I fool myself into thinking I’m fine too
But then I crumble up inside of me, crying
I like to think that the pain I feel has been reduced
Sooner or later though… it haunts me, winning

It caught up with me again, this tormented feeling
I try to run but it stops me from seeing
I’d like to vanish and be part of the unknown
But after years of trying… they won’t let me go

So tell me, what do I do now… my head turns and turns
I’d rather be in fire that makes my body burn
Again, nothing seems to matter even my dreams
I don’t even know what to do about this but scream

Feb 18 2003