phoenix

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we make our own

not enforcing neutrality in the face of harmemotional reactions to oppression are validhelp people locate power in themselves, not just in systemsoffer healing that doesn’t require obedience to the broken rules listenvalidatename real thingshelp people feel less alone

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permanently

She wanted me to smile through things that caused me painShe wanted to erase everything i ever namedShe wanted me small so she wouldn’t ever fearShe wanted control and pretended to hear Instead she left me in a lifetime of doubt and sorrowAnd filled the spaces with abandonment and shallowWords replace where love used to beAs i let go of her chains permanently

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consistent hurts

it’s not about who’s rightIt’s about whether we can meet each other in truthwithout causing more harm than healing not asking people to contort themselves for youbut for respect, for fairnessfor a relationship whereyour pain is real, not inconvenientwhere conflict isn’t a weaponand love isn’t something you have to earnby ignoring harm it’s not wrong to want space to be how you arewithout it being used against you if […]

misty relos merakicat yourerighthere - Misty Relos

you’re right here

You’re right here. Still breathing and tryingand loving and still showing upEven when everything hurtsor even when there’sno clear next step So what do you do? You stay with yourselfYou do the next thingNot the whole planor the forever fixJust the next simple thing You let yourself hate that it’s like thisYou let the grief come through without shameYou stop pretending that what happened wasn’t realYou stop doubting and […]

truth and sickness

Telling the truth and getting punished for it is the sickness. What’s really happening is the world has rules about how much pain you’re allowed to show, how loud you’re allowed to be, how human you’re allowed to feel especially if you’re already someone they don’t understand or if you’re someone they can’t neatly categorize. It’s not about causing harm, it’s about sharing reality and being transparent. This can […]

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unresolved pain

sometimes unresolved pain rises up in us asking for wholenessnot by forcing control or simply enduringbut by surrendering and breaking freethe new path may be dark and unclearit asks for a new kind of strengthit asks for a new kind of courageit asks for a new definitiona new meaninga new beinga new lifeanew anewagain and againonce more but deeperonce more but strongeragain and more and freefree to be who […]

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snap

the connection snapped the moment i realized they will never see me as someoneworth disrupting their comfort for they were never going to catch me but i didn’t fall into nowhereit was me finally flying free

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beyond a person

there’s a point where a person stops just beinga name, a story, a role, a label, a past, a trajectoryand starts becoming bigger than their outline you become something more whenyou stop asking “who am i supposed to be?”and start asking “what is trying to happen through me?” by existing fully, even when we’re told not towe start holding the world differentlyand find our own solid meaning in itone […]

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resolution and healing

not everyone wants resolutionsome people want comfort, controlclosure on their termswhere nothing has to changeexcept your silence no resolution doesn’t mean no healingit just means healing won’t come from themit means it will have to come from within youfrom the truth you holdfrom the life you buildfrom the people who see you and don’t turn awayit’s the place where their story ends in yoursand where your real one begins […]

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consciousness in motion

It’s us trying to survive, love,and make sense of the nonsensicalall at the same time We can feel and questionand laugh through itand spiral right back into clarity That’s consciousness in motion We are not required to dull our minds to be realWe are not required to dull our hearts to be taken seriouslyWe are not required to pick one frame to be allowed to exist

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knowing pain

Knowing pain doesn’t negate the choice to move.Feeling deeply doesn’t mean being paralyzed by it.We can hold harm and hope at the same timeand doing so doesn’t erase either one. We cannot fix everything.We cannot carry the whole world.But if we let that truth numb usif we disconnect just to survivethen we lose the ability to shapeeven the small parts that are ours to shape.That is how the world […]

spiral intensity

People sometimes mistake my spirals or intensity for being ungrounded, but it’s actually the opposite. I stay. I stay with the truth, the contradictions, the grief, the wanting. Even when it burns or I’m alone in it or when no one else knows how. I don’t split from myself. I hold it all.