I am alone in this crazy whirlpool
With no one here to guide me every day
But I know it’s my fault you don’t come to me
I just push people away

I am afraid that you’ll just use me
Pretending to be a real friend
I know I shouldn’t feel like this
But I think it’s the wait it’ll end

Do you think I can trust after what I’ve been through
Do you think I could just banish the pain
You don’t know how painful this has been to me
Can you help me get through and forget
Can you help me get through and forget

You push me so hard into remembering
What happened to me long ago
But I refuse to be a part of this
It’s eating me up, don’t you know

So why don’t you just make me go away
I’ll be saying the same things every day
You won’t lead me into saying
The words I dare not say

How long should this hell go on
I am alive but there is nothing I know
You question me over and over but still
I know that I’m not real

2005