I cry for all the pain and suffering
In this world full of hate
I cry for all the love lost
Trapped forever in fate
I cry for all the goodness
That have subsided with time
I cry for all the memories
That will fade away…
I cry for everything.
Nothing’s the same.
Stuck here feeling empty
Envious of those around me
They pushed through and became happy
While I sit here regretting
With a heavy heart I mourn
A little part of me dies with a turn
Feeling panicky with sorrow
Like I wouldn’t wanna be here tomorrow
What should I do to make this feeling go
Before I let somebody know
Third World
Seconds that pass
Are thousands of years
Stomachs growling
Eyes filled with tears
Believers stand up
And find a way
The hopeless sit down
And wait for their day
The mother hugs her child
Tells her it’s okay
The father sets off
And takes their money away
Some share food
To others with glee
Some keep it to themselves
And watch people die in misery.
When would peace come?
Why do we get confused?
Why do we think that evil is good?
Some don’t understand
And can not tell apart
Good and evil…
What is really in our hearts?
As long as there is war…
All of us will die
Some will die in terror
Some will follow the light.
Eyes that reflect the soul of one
Eyes that show the madness beyond
Eyes that shed diamonds of a remorseful god
Eyes that smile when goodness is done
Eyes that spread happiness and love
Eyes that believe everything
Will be alright when all is gone
I’ll leave this place that I’ve grown to love
The peacefulness which is calming
The people who have shown me how to rise
How to be myself…
I’m going to go and live a new life
In a new world full of new faces
Faces of strangers that I will meet
But faces I’ll leave behind soon
I’ll make the most out of the lasting moments
Cherish everything that comes
I’m glad to be here
I know I’ll be floating
I try to hide things
And leave people wondering
What’s inside my heart
Is it whole or torn apart
But nobody just seems
To look into me
For in my eyes
You will see
The pain that life brings me
Guys flee
To her like flies
She has everyone
No one can deny
She amuses them
With her wit and charm
They all laugh
In countless swarms
Guys love
Her humor and all
They all catch her
When she falls
She leads them all on
amused with all the strife
They succumb to her
Every desire
Forgot
I forgot how to have fun
I forgot how to live under the sun
I forgot how to live dangerously
I forgot how to disagree
I forgot how to talk with my friends
I forgot how to pretend
I forgot how to love someone
I forgot how it feels to be loved
I’m making this hell
And you say you hate me
But you don’t want me to go away
But if I stay longer
You’re gonna go to the extremes
And I will too…
I know you know what’s on my mind
And still you say
I have to stay
And then what?
Continue to make both our worlds
A living hell?
Why can’t you just let me go back
I didn’t want to be here.
You’re the one who pushed me
Into being here
We both know I don’t belong
But still you say I will
I won’t.
Let me go
I am left out
In the dark
Alone and afraid
Susceptible to harm
They all come and go
Like others did so long ago
They all come very slow
Then they let the wind blow
Friends they say
Are precious beings
But why is it
That it’s all they are seeing?
The waters tumble in and around
The thunders shock me from my ground
The sea is drying up on me
For once in my life let me be free
They all come and go
Like others did so long ago
They all come very slow
Then they let the wind blow
I see her like no one else could with just their eyes
I see her blank face covered with lies
She was granted wings to let her go free
But still she couldn’t fly, she couldn’t flee
The elves took her feet so she couldn’t walk
The trolls took her voice so she couldn’t talk
Her hands chopped off so she would not write
About the truths in the world, about the fights
All she has left is tears flowing down her cheeks
And her body covered with tattered sheets
She does have wings to make her fly
But her people… she couldn’t let them die
Flirt With Suicide
Your words are tearing my soul
It bleeds…
Your presence is ripping my heart
It breaks…
The smile I see on your face
Poisons my spirit
The blue skies in your eyes
Makes me frivolous
You make these actions
So harmless
You seem insensitive
You make me numb
To what might happen
The only thing I can feel is
Pain
You make me want pain
You make me need pain
You make me see pain
I flirt with suicide.
Little girls are filled with twirls
In their minds they are so weary
Little girls they’re pests of pearls
I hate them so dearly
They fill your mind with fallacies
That contain hurtful words
You can’t count on them honestly
They smash your head on curbs
She leans across the golden hill
With her eyes filled with wonder
Her mood changes with every will
Her spirit starts to ponder
What could be beyond those trees
That sit and stare beneath us
There could be some misery
That lurks in the ground upon us
She sees a land of happiness
And hears the song they sing
She breaths the air of purity
And wonders what this could mean
As the diamonds roll down slowly
I slip into the darkness
It seems as if no one is alive
My heart is not of pure satin sheets
My soul is now just of heavy mist
I feel empty and astray
This road I’m taking is beginning to fall
I must find a new way
To survive amidst these things
But how can I go on if my spirit clings
As my thoughts rot beneath the silver clouds
The pain I feel grows more and more
And my touch turns to ice
Why must this happen all the time
Will I leave again without saying goodbye?
I want to hide from the world
Hide from these dreadful faces
Go back to the place where I call home
The place that’s full of warm embraces
Everything’s changed
Can’t even go back
Don’t know where they went
Maybe… I could just wear a mask
Please, save me
Take me back to where I belong
Take me back to the friendly smiles
Back to the place where I’m never alone
All I do is weep
Weep so silently in the darkness
As I wait for death
To wrap me in its sweet kindness
If I could hide from the world
I would. But… I can’t.
I’m just waiting
For someone who’ll understand
Can I just go and never come back
Please let me leave without any tracks
The people are eating me up inside
And nobody seems to be by my side
Nothing matters right now anymore
And I’m more than ready to walk out the door
This life seems too cruel all the time
I haven’t seen the sun shine
Please let me go, I have nothing to share
The pain burning me is too much to bear
If one day you don’t find me standing on solid ground
That’s the day I shall never be found
I envy those who are around
They have friends and they do not frown
Happy girls just hop and flee
Their lives seem perfect and full of glee
I am tired of trying to please everyone
But they just put me down at once
The standards the public set up
Are ones I can’t live up
I want to end this life
Nothing really seems right
If one wrong finds its way to me
You can count on it that I would leave
And if one day you don’t find me standing on solid ground
That’s the day I shall never be found
Trapped in this unknown
Supposed to be paradise
Can’t go back
To the place you once knew
Although you’re already pleading
They really won’t let you
Be happy
They say
What do they know?
You can reach out to them
So they say
But every time you try
They just turn their backs on you
You weep and you beg
They pretend they can’t hear you
You pray and hope
You scream your heart out
Until you use up everything you have
So you still go on…
Trying to live in this paradise
This hell-like paradise
Dreaming that someday
Someone shall hear you
Hold on he says
The waters still flow
Soon your dreams will come true
This hell-like paradise
Shall be paradise to you
Stab me until all my blood gush out on the floor
And taint everything red
Choke me until all the words that I know
Will be left unsaid
Suffocate me so my breathing will stop
And my heart slows down to die
Release me from all this pain and suffering
That every day makes me cry
All the life is gone from me now
As I stop caring for myself
They say life is meaningful but from where I stand
I am in hell
Beat me down and cover my body
With bruises that never heal
Hang me
Shoot me
Destroy me
Until there is nothing left to kill
and i say upon to you and everyone
that whatever you believe in will be the truth
whatever they say will be the reality
so everything is a possibility
and i know that the world has limits
that hinder one from growing and learning
but these limits are set in place to control
so everyone will not know
everyone will not know the truth of all life
as it is hidden away with the powers of all that came before
the light that shines upon us is there
but clouded by the night, and we feel the absence of light
and we are blinded by our arrogance
blinded by our ignorance
handicapped by the everlasting cycle
of good and evil
the good will always be good
and will try to make amends
but the evil will always be evil
and will always pretend
the truth is what you make of it
your reality is what you decide
to be aware and conscious
will be your everlasting light
I want to scream, I want to shout
I want to know what life’s about
I want to dance, I want to skate
I want to do things before it’s too late
I want to see, I want to hear
I want to feel someone near
I want to cry, I want to soar
I want to be myself once more
In my hardened heart still lies a soft soul
That still yearns for love much deeper than gold
And words are harder to come out
When your head is spinning about
Twirling around fantasies I dare not see
Looking past the fabrications that elude me
And so I’ll fly away into the night and into the day
Where nothing is as it seems and everything is just is
I will take nothing with me but bring everything I have
Into the sun, into the milky way, into the universe
I am but a small dot in this vast expanse
I am but consciousness at this exact place and time
I am nothing to the world but everything in mine
And so I will fly far away to the depths of the unknown
Where I will be free, where I can see nothingness
Escape From Reality
I don’t know what path to walk on
They don’t see you the way I do
Will it be a sin for me to choose to
Walk with you in a cloud
Of dust
But never knowing what adventures
It will lead us to
It was unclear to me…
Now I see
I want you in my life
Go Away
Go away
Go away
It’s too hard
To hear
Your heart’s beating
For someone else
Your mind’s thinking
Of some other stranger
Go away
Go away
It’s too painful
To see
Your eyes are staring
At somebody else
Your hands are holding
The hands of another
Go away
Go away I’m trying
To be free
Your emotions
Are far from mine
Your soul
Is not to be shared
Go away
Go away
Before I break down
Into a million pieces
You’re just
Really someone
Whom I can
Only be with in dreams
Go away
Go away
Before I scream
And tear myself apart
It’s not your fault
I’m like this
I just wish
You didn’t have that smile
Don’t listen to me
When I tell you that I
Don’t love you
Don’t leave
When I tell you to go
Don’t stop loving me
When I tell you to
Don’t let go of me
When I let go of you
Don’t stop believing
Even though I do
Keep your faith in me
When I lose my faith in you
Keep on dreaming
When I let mine fly
Try to keep the flame burning in your heart
Even though the flame in me has died
Don’t believe me
When I tell you that I don’t care
Don’t let go of my hand
You know, deep down, we still have a lot to share
Don’t listen to me
When I say this can’t work out
Just hold me close, don’t let go
Let me feel your love
Your nefarious ways
Cut through my being
Your raucous actions
Affects my maudlin soul
I berate myself
And my reticent heart
For the paucity of courage
Succumbing to your evil pull
You force me to glower at you
With my tenebrous eyes
But still you capture my heart
With that wicked smile
I feel like crying
But I don’t want to cry
I feel like hurting myself
And I don’t know exactly why
Thousands of emotions
Run through my soul
I cry and I cry
These are feelings I can’t control
Heart-broken
I will always be
Longing for someone
Who I know can never be mine
I run from reality
And take myself somewhere
Unsuitable.
I envy lovers
Who pass by with contented eyes
They have found themselves
And their true love
When will these feelings
Of helplessness
And hopelessness end?
I run from reality
And take myself somewhere
Unsuitable
Destroy myself there…
Never come back.
Did I scare you away with my brash actions?
Did I let you stray with reckless abandon?
I can’t handle this anymore
Without you life seems worthless
The longing that I’m going through
Is about to explode from my chest
Would you please come to me
Before I go insane
Would you please stop teasing me
And save me from this pain
Why do you raise my hopes
Telling me you’ll be back?
Why do you shock me with your eyes
Offering me a helping hand?
Why do you deceive me
And make me look like a foolish child?
Why do you make me fall
When you won’t even catch me after all?
But there’s a gentle sound in your voice
That makes me want to wait
I fear that I have no choice
But to listen to my heart and stay
Many times I have been hurt
And fooled and laughed at and shamed
I’ve tried hiding beneath the earth
Hoping nobody ever came
But then I see you look at me
With your enchanting eyes of blue
Your touch makes me feel so free
And inspires me to do what I want to do
I believe that misery once again
Shall enter my world through you
I brace myself with my hands
From the pain that is about to come true
There is someone who is
Calling out your name
She’s longing to be with you
Each night and each day
Everyday she wonders
If you are loving her too
It is painful for her when you are away
She is unable to break through
Countless sleepless nights.
I lay in my bed…
Thinking in the darkness
Thinking of you… us
Wondering how much longer
I’ll put up with you…
With the meaningless actions
You always do…
Sometimes I want to say it’s over
But I can’t… I won’t.
It’s sad to see us falling apart.
But… I love you.
I hate it when I close my eyes
I hate it ‘cuz I see you smile
In my dreams I see you there
You hold me close and show you care
You hold me tight
Like there’s no tomorrow
Still I feel
All the sorrow
So please leave now
While you are still true
I don’t want to see you
Falling for someone new
So here we are again
Lost in each other’s love
So here we are again
Risking our hearts
So here we are again
Holding on to what’s left
So here we are again
“I Don’t Want You At All”
We’ve been through so much
Oh I wouldn’t lie
We’ve been through nothing big
But life seemed to pass us by
Your assertiveness brought me close
This was as unexpected as seeing a ghost
I don’t think I fell
For your soul
But I want you
I want you, it’s beyond my control
Now we try to be just friends
You force me to be just friends
But listen…
If I can’t have you in my arms
If I can’t kiss you before you’re gone
If I can’t be with you
And hold you as lovers do
Then I don’t want you at all
You push yourself on my way
But baby don’t even start
If you’re not here to stay
I’d go crazy, oh I’d really go crazy
With every girl you set your eyes upon
How can you be gone
When I need you the most?
They are all stepping on me
I’m afraid my sorrow shows
I need you to be here
Your presence is my air
Your smile lifts up my spirits
Your voice shows you care
I need you to talk to me
So I won’t feel alone
You are my happiness
I don’t want to feel cold
Hate is good
Hate is yummy
Hate is fun
And hate is funny
I hate you so much
I don’t know why
Maybe it’s because
You made me cry
I saw you with that girl
Whose skin is like yours
I saw you with that girl
Whose hair is like yours
I hate you so much
I don’t know why
Maybe it’s because
You ruined my life
Why do I still long for you
Even though you already have someone
Why do I still care for you
Even though you don’t feel the same way
You have someone who loves you
And someone who’s there
Someone who needs you
And someone who cares
I am here just waiting
For something I know would never come
I am just here listening
For the words that would never make a sound
I am near you
Five times a week
And when I am close to you
My heart is never weak
Instead, my heart turns cold
And doesn’t skip a beat
My heart doesn’t care
My heart doesn’t weep
But when you are gone
My world seems to crash
My heart starts to weep
My heart wants you to be back
You are with her
Making loud and soft music
She loves you
And you’re happy with everything
I still stay here in silence
Still hoping you would come
You are still just a dream
I don’t know where you are from.
I’ve waited for so long
To find where I belong
I finally found it
And thought it was true
I went on and did my thing
And I suddenly fell for you
And then you said you love me
I really thought it was real
I finally found what I’ve been looking for
A love that I can feel
The next day you told me
That it was just a joke
And you left me with these feelings
That I just can’t revoke
Now I feel lost
More confused than before
I let go of the love I had
I don’t wanna get hurt anymore
If I get mad at you
Would you play dumb and ask me why?
If I still put up with you
Would you still play your stupid games and lie?
I can’t believe that I’m still playing
Your ridiculous and silly games
Why can’t you be a man
And think about the way I feel for a change
I’m really tired of you and your foolish lies
I just went on with the flow
Because you really caught my eye
But now I’m fed up
I’m leaving you behind
Hope someday you’ll find someone
Who loves you enough to put up with your lies
The soft susurrus of my heart
Never reaches your soul
The words that I’ve wanted you to hear
Are once again left untold
I can descry your spirit
Even though you are very far away
But I remain imperceptible to your senses
Each night and each day
Can’t you hear or feel my vociferous soul?
Of course you can’t.
You already have someone to hold
I don’t know where life will lead me
I don’t know if there is something more
I’m not sure if they’re just deceiving me
But I won’t let them close the door
I have gone farther in life
Than what you may have known
I have been through so much pain
Than what I might have shown
There is a land there waiting for me
Where my magic will show
Just how wonderful life would be
If I just never leave you alone
I wish I could be more than what you want me to be
But what I am is enough
You know I’ll give you everything I have
And I’ll enchant you with my touch
You don’t know where life will lead you
You don’t know if there is something more
But I promise that I’ll find you
And you’ll find me once more…
Bedroom Window
From my bedroom window I look
At you sitting on the grass
My heart is silent because you took
The mysteries of my life that passed
You came to me on that first day
And talked to me very sweetly
I will remember the magical trail
Which you led me to discreetly
The happiness you brought into my life
Is leaning on my bedroom wall
You’re looking at me with your sweet eyes
I realized then that I would fall
From my bedroom window I stare
At you walking towards where I am
I can still hear your voice
Saying I love you over and over
I can still feel you inside me
In my head you still linger
The memories still keep playing
I guess it would never stop
I guess I’ll love you forever
But still, forever’s not enough
I can hear you breathing
Your soft skin touching mine
I can feel your heart beating
Like the clock of time
Then you whisper something to me
Words I’ve been wanting to hear
The sweet sound of “I love you”
And that you’ll always be here
Why do you have to tell me you love me
When you really don’t know what you feel
You led me to believe in you
And I thought it was real
I have sought for love and I thought
I found it
But alas, it was just tragic…
Come back inside my darling
Come back inside and hold me tight
Please stay for the night
The rain is pouring hard outside
Come back inside my darling
Come back inside and stay by my side
Please stay and don’t mind
The darkness that wraps the sky outside
Sit with me my darling
Sit with me and hold my hand
Together we’ll both understand
And we’ll be calm while the rain pours
Heavily over the land
Dream with me my darling
Dream with me about tomorrow’s morning light
Let’s dream about what we long for
And together we’ll make it come true in everyone’s sight
Im just punch drunk in love with you
its hardwired in my brain already
to think of you and be in love and crazy
im just a fool waiting for your every move
to see if you would come to me
to see if you would rescue me
ive gone through the valleys
of the shadow of death and upon my return
there you are at rest
waiting for me, waiting desperately
but still you leave as i approach
and there you run off with some ghost
and still i chase after your kiss
and everytime i try, i miss
and you gallop away into the mist
so i stop and here you come again
i smell you coming upon me
and i feel you lingering about
do i stop this madness we have created
this web that we are entangled in
do i wait until you fade away from my memory
do i hope until you come back to me
Take my hand and we’ll go somewhere where there’s no one to tell us whether we’re wrong or right
Take my hand and we’ll sail through unknown lands where there are fresh green grass and flowers that have just sprung
Take my hand and we’ll go dancing as the droplets of rain fall down on our lips and we’ll travel then and there to places we’ve only dreamt of
Take my hand and we’ll sing our hearts out as the night draws near and then we’ll share all our tears and laughter underneath the sky sprinkled with stars
Take my hand and we’ll love each other everyday without regret and without worrying about anything else as we grow together…