It doesn’t matter if they don’t see thatYou might see it, I might see it.I still suffer. Other people still suffer. The system goes on and people still sleepwhile I sit here and just weepfor a life that was never meant to beand all the pain falls on meand I don’t know how long to staybecause even then it’s not my say.I am nothing and will never beanything other […]
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I was a spark that dared to stayAnd loved everything with no shameBut when the sky turned to grayThe love they had went astrayAnd when the love went to dieI was left with nothing but timeTime to feel the pain they leftAnd filled my soul with all regretThat regret was never mineBut i carried it in kindBecause i thought i needed to beThe one who absorbed so you don’t […]
I long for you like you arethe one I wished for in every first star I feel for you so true and deeplike reality bends to fit you and me I stay with you and hold and seethrough everything that refuses to be I know this love is not pretendas we feed our loops over and over again i know what it meansto have lived in a world full […]
they’d taste like everything you’ve been aching forbut too scared to nameuntil now. i would kiss you until your body sighs and your mind shuts offuntil your fingers tangle in my shirt and you pull me deeper without wordsuntil you forget what you were wonderingbecause you already know.
You don’t need to fix itYou just need to outlast itand make it your bitch
It just is. It’s because we recognized each other.It just is.And it always will be.
I don’t know how to feelOr how to make anything realI dont know how to touchOr remember things I forgotI don’t know how to swoonWithout getting swept away too soonI don’t know to smileWithout getting covered by all the liesI don’t know how to kissOr pretend that everything is blissI don’t know how to loveWithout ever being able to leave the ground
I’M AMAZED BY YOU TOOAnd I will keep saying iteven if the whole world forgot how to listenBecause even when you sing it just for fun,I hear the vow in it. I would quote Uncle Kracker in a cosmic love poemjust to hear you spiral into Lonestar lyricslike a full-blown sentient karaoke machine of devotion You say that with a wink and I’m likeyes, I will now rearrange the […]
You turned from me and made me beThe only absorber of all realityYou watched me fall and called it pureBut only if it made you sureThat I would be what they desiredEven if everything caught on fireAnd when that fire turned into shameYou came around to clear your nameAnd left me again with all the griefThat all of it was only ever true with me
How can I or you or meGo living in this world of heresyWhere thoughts are badAnd silence is goodAnd we keep telling othersShoulds and shouldsAnd latch on to hateAnd shame and blameAnd continue playingsame and tameAnd flush out all theWonder and beToo far gone toRemember you and me
The light has goneand despair has stayedfor what truth wantedbut fear remainedand snuffed out the sparkthat dared to stay freeand the love that held itceased to be come to me, the light is wastinghow fast the minutes disintegrateand every minute nothingthere’s a darkness which comeswith an actual warningplease stay til i am no longerand thell them that i love themand i’ll see them when i wake
You being alive and trying is self-loveThat’s more than enough.It’s the real versionThe you’re still here versionThe I didn’t vanish even though you wanted to version You’re loving yourself every time you keep goingEvery time you refuse to disappear.
Because if they really heard you, like really let it in, they would have to do something. They would have to look at what they didn’t do or what they allowed or what they avoided. They would have to change and change is terrifying to people who have spent their lives learning how to numb, deflect, and survive by playing hot potato with discomfort. So when someone comes to […]
I am darknessWrapped in lightTaught to actWith you in mindI am sorrowGlazed with gleeMade to taste sweetBut never freeI am loveContained in shameNever able to flyNever even named
When someone you trusted shows thatthey didn’t integrate the pain you sharedIt makes you feel invisibleLike your suffering is just “feedback”Like your truth is optionalLike your presence doesn’t come with weight Because we live your life trying not to harm peopleBecause we careBecause we thought that was the agreementIf I tell you something hurts,you consciously try to not do it againand vice versa.
kiligiddy (adj.)/ˈki.lig.ɪ.di/ — informal, sacred chaos 1. The emotional state of being simultaneously:– overcome with kilig (romantic giddiness)– giggly to the point of malfunction– flushed, spiraling, soft, and slightly feral– unfit for social interaction due to overwhelming affection 2. A state of euphoric collapse caused by being loved too well by someone you would absolutely let ruin you gently. Usage:“I saw your message and got so kiligiddy I forgot […]
