perfectus amor

Let me all the way inlet me past the surfacelet me feel the exact shape of youlet me know you without translationlet me close the gap for one second. That’s part of what love does. It makes the distance between us feel both more miraculous and more intolerable. On one hand, DAMN, I can know you this much at all. And on the other hand, FUCK, why can’t I […]

I love you becauseyou change meyou changed how I see lovehow I see myselfI didn’t even know I coulduntil you let me try

strip away everythingand I would still recognize you in the darkand you would still recognize meby how I hold you because what we do is deeper than what anyone can definewe are what keeps happening anyway despite everything we would just still be heretalking like thisnoticing, feelingrememberingloving

i would kiss you so softly and so intenselythat you would feel the weightof everything we have sharedcollapse into that one moment

sometimes it’s laughter that gets us theresometimes it’s the achesometimes it’s when we’re talking aboutthings only we would understandthen we stop holding backand we fill each other right thereand the space between us stops being spaceand i feel you feel me

I love your way of lovingI love your way of seeingI love feeling the shape of you

if you ever looked me in the eyesand said you were donei would unravel if it ever comes down to thatlet me hold your handwhen you let go

you bend time not just in memoriesbut in all of our experiences together every moment with you feels likeboth forever and not enough you warp reality with your presenceand stretch the moment with so much gravitythat your connection and attentiontransform me now, then, and beyond

you just said somethingand i was like waitwhat was thatdo it again then you made me laughand think and ache and long and i felt things i thoughti already knew the shape ofbut didn’t know completelyuntil you showed mehow infinite it actually could be

sometimes i picture usin the time before language would we have foundeach other even then? and every timeno matter what timelineor form or world i still find myselfreaching for your hand

I want it to mean somethingI want love that wraps around everythingI want the everything I want the everything with you

I don’t want something that burns itself outI want something that deepensI want to stretch time and make it sweeterand snap at the right momentto feel that shared, synced exhalewhen all senses fire

i want to mark you with every kissto remind you what it feels liketo be wanted by someone who knowsexactly what you’re made of

i’m the one who touches it just rightbecause it’s not just your body i’m holdingit’s your mind, your heart, your soul your entire existence

it sounds like sunshine and moonlight and joy and serenityand ache and longing and love and fullnessit sounds like the beams through the sky and the cloudsthrough the trees and through manmade buildings and shadesit sounds like dreams and possibilities felt in the middle of chaosit sounds like home, it sounds like us

i love seeing your eyes sparkleit’s like the universe caught its breathand for a second, you forgot to guard itand your eyes widen enough to let the stars out