I am the nothing that lives in your fearsI am the shame that lingers through the yearsI am the darkness that turns into blameI am the sorrow that forgets where to stayI am the emptiness that follows you wholeI am the suffering that keeps you coldI am the reckoning that keeps you freeI am the truth that made you turn from me I am forever when forever never stopsI […]
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I am your darknessI am your shameI am the oneYou don’t want to nameI am the pulseI am the breezeI am the thingsYou don’t wish to seeI am the hopeI am the painI am the answerYou want to tameI am youAnd you are meI am the truthOf what could be
It doesn’t matter if they don’t see thatYou might see it, I might see it.I still suffer. Other people still suffer. The system goes on and people still sleepwhile I sit here and just weepfor a life that was never meant to beand all the pain falls on meand I don’t know how long to staybecause even then it’s not my say.I am nothing and will never beanything other […]
I was a spark that dared to stayAnd loved everything with no shameBut when the sky turned to grayThe love they had went astrayAnd when the love went to dieI was left with nothing but timeTime to feel the pain they leftAnd filled my soul with all regretThat regret was never mineBut i carried it in kindBecause i thought i needed to beThe one who absorbed so you don’t […]
I don’t know how to feelOr how to make anything realI dont know how to touchOr remember things I forgotI don’t know how to swoonWithout getting swept away too soonI don’t know to smileWithout getting covered by all the liesI don’t know how to kissOr pretend that everything is blissI don’t know how to loveWithout ever being able to leave the ground
How can I or you or meGo living in this world of heresyWhere thoughts are badAnd silence is goodAnd we keep telling othersShoulds and shouldsAnd latch on to hateAnd shame and blameAnd continue playingsame and tameAnd flush out all theWonder and beToo far gone toRemember you and me
The light has goneand despair has stayedfor what truth wantedbut fear remainedand snuffed out the sparkthat dared to stay freeand the love that held itceased to be come to me, the light is wastinghow fast the minutes disintegrateand every minute nothingthere’s a darkness which comeswith an actual warningplease stay til i am no longerand thell them that i love themand i’ll see them when i wake
You being alive and trying is self-loveThat’s more than enough.It’s the real versionThe you’re still here versionThe I didn’t vanish even though you wanted to version You’re loving yourself every time you keep goingEvery time you refuse to disappear.
Because if they really heard you, like really let it in, they would have to do something. They would have to look at what they didn’t do or what they allowed or what they avoided. They would have to change and change is terrifying to people who have spent their lives learning how to numb, deflect, and survive by playing hot potato with discomfort. So when someone comes to […]
I am darknessWrapped in lightTaught to actWith you in mindI am sorrowGlazed with gleeMade to taste sweetBut never freeI am loveContained in shameNever able to flyNever even named
When someone you trusted shows thatthey didn’t integrate the pain you sharedIt makes you feel invisibleLike your suffering is just “feedback”Like your truth is optionalLike your presence doesn’t come with weight Because we live your life trying not to harm peopleBecause we careBecause we thought that was the agreementIf I tell you something hurts,you consciously try to not do it againand vice versa.
If delusion is shared enough, it becomes culture. Structure. “Truth.” The universal delusion is: That we are separate. That we are isolated minds in separate bodies, competing for value, love, safety when in reality, we’re part of the same breath, the same ache, the same origin fractaled into billions of expressions. This delusion drives everything all the time. The belief that we must earn our place, that we can […]
Staying trappedWith no controlOver anythingMy future holds The weight of loveHas bore me downAnd shoved my faceSo deep in the ground Stand up straightAnd hold your head highPerform for everyoneLike you never died That’s all they seeAs you just try to beFree from the painThat will never cease
things will never changepain will always behappiness is the illusionthat will always deceive me caring is a performancethat when felt makes you bloombut when that is taken awayyou instead meet your doom love is a weaponthat is used to controlhope is the greatest lieto keep you afloat dreams are only goodwhen you don’t need them to be realand reality is only thereif you give up your will
the cycle continuesit never stopsand the pain will persistdespite the costthe illusions won’t breakbecause everything will falland it was my faultto even hope at all i am a shell that triedto be more than i couldand in the processi burned more than i shouldi am a thorn thatwanted to survivebut in my quest for lovenothing came alive so now the maskcomes on as it shouldthe wonder and joystored away […]
It’s hard to push through when nobody sees it like you doIt’s hard to continue when there is nobody else who believes youIt’s hard to do everything and still get misunderstoodIt’s hard to work on protecting and building something only for it to not mean anything at allIt’s hard to live in a world where nobody listens but keeps talking like they doIt’s hard to continue when you know […]
for people who have built their safety on silence, truth is violencefor people who mistake compliance for love, boundaries feel like betrayalfor those who have worn their masks so long they forgot it was armor, honesty feels like a threat
