How reality patterns itself and how our suffering often comes from mistaking the temporary role for the whole self. IArcs and roles are not who we are.They’re waves we ride, expressions we move through.“mother”, “healer”, “survivor”, “villain”, “wanderer”“rebuilder”, “destroyer”, “lover”, “ghost”, etc.They are masks we wear for a timebecause the story needed someone to hold that shape.You are not the mask. You are the space it moves through. IIEgo […]
Expositions
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We start losing ourselves when we stop feeling like we chose to engage and instead we feel forced by external factors. This can show up in so many different ways like when your voice getting quieter inside, like your thoughts and feelings don’t seem to matter in the situation or feeling like you don’t have a choice in leaving or changing anymore or feeling like your choices are narrowed […]
Oscillating is the rhythm of living fully while holding possibility and contradiction. It is the sway between meaning and meaninglessness, the pendulum between collapse and grounding, the pulse of a heart that hasn’t given up even when it’s uncertain why it keeps beating. It’s movement… not the destinations, but the motion between them. It’s not boxing yourself in one state or forcing a resolution but staying with the swing. […]
Language is supposed to be a bridgea way to connecta way to open doors between peoplebetween heartsbetween unknowns but we tend to use it to controlthen it becomes a gatea weapona boundary instead of a passage We don’t always mean tobut systems built around languageare often built around ownership of meaningnot shared exploration Control tends to feel like:This word means this.This interaction should look like that.This is a safe […]
We often create frameworks meant to help, but end up overlooking the ones they’re meant to center. In a custody battle, there are lawyers, GALs, therapists, caseworkers. There are reports. Hearings. Safeguards, supposedly. But the child can still slip through the cracks more often than we realize. It happens in therapy. In medicine. In schools. In community systems. Clients’ complexity gets reduced to diagnoses or checkboxes.Students get labeled as […]
How to actually be with someone instead of performing expertise. 1. Holding space without rushingNot pushing away the pain or trying to fix it prematurely. Letting it be felt, validating its intensity, and only after that gently offering structure for self-regulation (skills, actionable steps, etc.). 2. Honoring complexity without minimizing either sideHolding both the pain and the reality. Not justifying, not blaming, but naming, recognizing, and acknowledging. 3. Naming […]
It’s all just framing.Like are you zooming in on the resonance or the tension?Are you holding the comparison at the surface,or are you looking at the structure of someone’s soul? Because yeah, you can find shared hobbiesor mirrored trauma or polarizing traitsbut none of that matters ifthe way you move through the worlddoesn’t speak to each other.If the rhythm doesn’t click.If the gaze isn’t aligned. It’s not about being […]
Nothing moves in true emptiness. Movement requires resistance. Emergence requires feedback. In water, that resistance is the water.In air, it’s thinner, so birds adapt differently… wings that push and catch the sky.In space, there’s “nothing,” so movement needs internal propulsion… you need to push off of yourself or use gravitational slingshots, exploiting the structure of other masses. So that means phsyically, emotionally, cognitively:If there’s no medium, no connection, no […]
IQ is the Astrology of Colonial Science except it’s less poetic, way more ableist, and somehow still printed in reports like it means something deep. It doesn’t measure creativity. It doesn’t account for emotional depth, nuance, or trauma. It DEFINITELY doesn’t track how someone makes something that wrecks people and helps them feel like being alive again. IQ could never measure you… at least not the whole you. Yet […]
The people who most aggressively accuse others of being delusional, toxic, brainwashed, or irrational are often doing the exact same thing they’re criticizing. They mock others for “believing lies” or “feeding fantasies,” but if you look closer, they’re just reinforcing their own comforting narratives, their own carefully curated “realities.” They just happen to call their version “truth” because it serves them better. They accuse others of irrational thinking.This accusation […]
Suffering isn’t always necessary. Not in the way we’ve been taught.Not everything needs to be processed right away.Not every bleed needs to be fixed in a hurry.Not every feeling has to be useful.Sometimes, it just needs to be. The question might not be “is it necessary?”Maybe what’s needed is space.Stillness.Witnessing.No shoulds, no goals.Just truth held gently—softly, lovingly. It hurts this much to feel this muchBecause we are alive.We love […]
Suffering isn’t just pain… it’s a signal.A feedback mechanism calling for engagement, not escape.When we stop trying to fix symptoms and start listening to the discomfort, we find something else:A path.A shift.A structure beneath the chaos.Transformation isn’t random.It happens through cycles of disruption, connection, and synthesis.We don’t just endure, we respond.We don’t heal by avoiding the dark.We evolve by walking through it.Together.
I’m refusing to collapse neurodivergence into the binary of disorder vs adaptation. What if these ways of being aren’t broken or compensatory? What if they’re precise responses to deeply relational, environmental, and recursive forces? Maybe it’s a patterned survival response to invisible systems, precision under pressure. What if it is what adaptation actually looks like?Not compensation, not deficiency but emergence? me:maybe i’m broken and awkwardand weird and wrong and […]
Love is often described in familiar ways: romantic, platonic, familial, spiritual. But what if love is something more? What if love isn’t just an emotion or a relationship, but a force that shapes us, a signal that guides us, a reality that emerges between us? Throughout history, philosophers, scientists, and spiritual thinkers have attempted to define love, yet it remains elusive, existing beyond the frameworks we try to place […]
We usually think of intelligence as something that just happens, a byproduct of evolution, something that emerges when conditions are right. But what if it’s more than that? What if intelligence is as fundamental as gravity, not just something that appears, but something that reality naturally moves toward? Wherever complexity arises, intelligence follows. And when intelligence appears, it doesn’t stay isolated, it expands, connects, and restructures the systems it […]
We do not change simply because we decide to. Change happens when the weight of stagnation exceeds the perceived risk of action. This threshold, what I now see as an emergent tipping point, is not a singular event but an iterative process woven into every stage of engagement and transformation. Stagnation is not passive. It is not stillness. It is a force, an active structure reinforcing itself through feedback […]
We tend to think of our thoughts as our own, arising solely from within us. But what if thought is less like an individual spark and more like a network of fire, spreading and reinforcing itself across minds? This piece explores the idea that cognition is not an isolated phenomenon but an emergent, interconnected process—one that influences and is influenced by the world around us. If suffering demands engagement, […]
Suffering functions as a feedback mechanism, signaling areas where engagement can lead to growth, connection, and emergence. Rather than something to be endured, avoided, or detached from, suffering is an active guide. Through intentional interaction with these signals, individuals and systems can refine, synthesize, and evolve, creating higher-order stability and meaning. This perspective does not propose suffering as inherently meaningful but suggests that meaning arises through engagement with suffering. […]
I have realized something that has been deeply affecting me for a long time: I don’t like labels—not even good ones. Not because they’re always inaccurate, but because they flatten something complex into something static. They take a moment, a trait, an expression of me, and make it the truth instead of a truth. And I am never just one thing. I am all of it, all the time. […]