I can’t help you if I haven’t helped myself
I thought I have learned a lot of things
But still I can’t quite understand them
I keep a lot of pain in my heart
I have kept them for a lot of years
They are better left unsaid and heard
For I fear that no one would want to hear
People really don’t understand me
Even though they say they do
How could they know how I feel
For I, myself do not understand all the pain that
I have been going through
I wish I just wasn’t born
Life is just so complicated
For I once read in a book
From the very start, I’m a disappointment
So you see, I keep the pain
And it burdens me more and more
I want to give up on life
I know I’ll never soar

Sept 8 2001