there was nobody else there but me
grief
27 posts
Being nice can reduce everyday friction with people who are acting in good faith but it does nothing against someone whose real problem is that you bring awareness to the things they would rather avoid. You can be calm, careful, generous, precise, and compassionate, and they will still not like it if the truth threatens their self-image, control, convenience, or access. Then thoughtfulness gives them more room to cloud […]
would you even noticewhen I walk awayor see and understandall the things that frayed would you even knowwhat used to be alivethat staved off the painthat they all said to hide would you even seewhere the love really wasor will it be crystallizedin fragments of us
I reach for you like it used to beAnd what reaches back is not you and meAnd i cant tell if there’s anything thereOr has it been all unawareAnd we look over anything that ever wasBecause in that moment, the veil was lifted from over us
All my dreams fly awaywith the same winds that brought you hereThey follow you into the cold and darkwhere you once sat nearI find myself in nothingnesswith no warmth or care in sightAnd deep in my core lives the grieffrom a love that once burned bright
I exist in the corners of my mindand the shadows of my soulI ache in the caverns of my heartand the depths of control I breathe in judgment and assumptionsas I sense it in the airand let it consume the pain in meand change it into care But when that care gets trampledand turned into griefand when the love that used to warmburned all you could see Hope is […]
Here I am again, trying to calm myself of the pain I feel insideListening to songs that make me feel that I really don’t want to die These songs give me hope and faith that something good is waitingSomething that I have dreamed of since I was a young girl, dreaming Trying to walk away even for just a while from realityAnd going to a place where there is […]
I try to go outside there thinking everything’s okayHoping to make people believe that nothing’s wrong todayThey can only see happiness through my eyesEveryday I’m getting better, making them believe in lies Sometimes I fool myself into thinking I’m fine tooBut then I crumble up inside of me, cryingI like to think that the pain I feel has been reducedSooner or later though… it haunts me, winning It caught […]
The heavens collapsed over my numb body.But still, I can feel.I feel its weight over me. Pain.It travels around my whole being.I want to escape. I can’t. I try to scream for help but nothing comes out of me.I can hear. I can hear the waters coming.They’re coming in great waves. It drowns me. Now, I’m totally numb. No one’s here to save me. I am alone. Darkness eats […]
Can I just go and never come backPlease let me leave without any tracksThe people are eating me up insideAnd nobody seems to be by my sideNothing matters right now anymoreAnd I’m more than ready to walk out the doorThis life seems too cruel all the timeI haven’t seen the sun shinePlease let me go, I have nothing to shareThe pain burning me is too much to bearIf one […]
I see her like no one else could with just their eyesI see her blank face covered with lies She was granted wings to let her go freeBut still she couldn’t fly, she couldn’t flee The elves took her feet so she couldn’t walkThe trolls took her voice so she couldn’t talk Her hands chopped off so she would not writeAbout the truths in the world, about the fights […]
Now I know where I standAnd the waiting has stopped for meI am now once again in a heavy landI knew that misery soon would soon be
I am left outIn the darkAlone and afraidSusceptible to harm They all come and goLike others did so long agoThey all come very slowThen they let the wind blow Friends they sayAre precious beingsBut why is itThat it’s all they are seeing? The waters tumble in and aroundThe thunders shock me from my groundThe sea is drying up on meFor once in my life let me be free They […]
When would peace come?Why do we get confused?Why do we think that evil is good?Some don’t understandAnd can not tell apartGood and evil…What is really in our hearts?As long as there is war…All of us will dieSome will die in terrorSome will follow the light.
I can’t help you if I haven’t helped myselfI thought I have learned a lot of thingsBut still I can’t quite understand themI keep a lot of pain in my heartI have kept them for a lot of yearsThey are better left unsaid and heardFor I fear that no one would want to hearPeople really don’t understand meEven though they say they doHow could they know how I feelFor […]
I want out of here.Out of this “paradise”I want to go homeFeel the love I had once knownBut they won’t let me.They love me, so they say.Well do you call loveBeing treated as a slave?“Stop being selfish”They tell me thisWhile all my lifeI’m the one who’s always giving“If you love us, you’ll stay”What about me?You say you love meBut you treat me this wayPlease let me goIf not, I […]
I want to hide from the worldHide from these dreadful facesGo back to the place where I call homeThe place that’s full of warm embraces Everything’s changedCan’t even go backDon’t know where they wentMaybe… I could just wear a mask Please, save meTake me back to where I belongTake me back to the friendly smilesBack to the place where I’m never alone All I do is weepWeep so silently […]