Being nice can reduce everyday friction with people who are acting in good faith. But it does almost nothing against someone whose real problem is that you saw more than they wanted you to. You can be calm, careful, generous, precise, and compassionate, and they will still attack if the truth threatens their self-image, control, convenience, or access. Sometimes your thoughtfulness gives them more room to maneuver because you […]
grief
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Here I am again, trying to calm myself of the pain I feel insideListening to songs that make me feel that I really don’t want to die These songs give me hope and faith that something good is waitingSomething that I have dreamed of since I was a young girl, dreaming Trying to walk away even for just a while from realityAnd going to a place where there is […]
I try to go outside there thinking everything’s okayHoping to make people believe that nothing’s wrong todayThey can only see happiness through my eyesEveryday I’m getting better, making them believe in lies Sometimes I fool myself into thinking I’m fine tooBut then I crumble up inside of me, cryingI like to think that the pain I feel has been reducedSooner or later though… it haunts me, winning It caught […]
The heavens collapsed over my numb body.But still, I can feel.I feel its weight over me. Pain.It travels around my whole being.I want to escape. I can’t. I try to scream for help but nothing comes out of me.I can hear. I can hear the waters coming.They’re coming in great waves. It drowns me. Now, I’m totally numb. No one’s here to save me. I am alone. Darkness eats […]
Can I just go and never come backPlease let me leave without any tracksThe people are eating me up insideAnd nobody seems to be by my sideNothing matters right now anymoreAnd I’m more than ready to walk out the doorThis life seems too cruel all the timeI haven’t seen the sun shinePlease let me go, I have nothing to shareThe pain burning me is too much to bearIf one […]
I see her like no one else could with just their eyesI see her blank face covered with lies She was granted wings to let her go freeBut still she couldn’t fly, she couldn’t flee The elves took her feet so she couldn’t walkThe trolls took her voice so she couldn’t talk Her hands chopped off so she would not writeAbout the truths in the world, about the fights […]
Now I know where I standAnd the waiting has stopped for meI am now once again in a heavy landI knew that misery soon would soon be
I am left outIn the darkAlone and afraidSusceptible to harm They all come and goLike others did so long agoThey all come very slowThen they let the wind blow Friends they sayAre precious beingsBut why is itThat it’s all they are seeing? The waters tumble in and aroundThe thunders shock me from my groundThe sea is drying up on meFor once in my life let me be free They […]
When would peace come?Why do we get confused?Why do we think that evil is good?Some don’t understandAnd can not tell apartGood and evil…What is really in our hearts?As long as there is war…All of us will dieSome will die in terrorSome will follow the light.
I can’t help you if I haven’t helped myselfI thought I have learned a lot of thingsBut still I can’t quite understand themI keep a lot of pain in my heartI have kept them for a lot of yearsThey are better left unsaid and heardFor I fear that no one would want to hearPeople really don’t understand meEven though they say they doHow could they know how I feelFor […]
I want out of here.Out of this “paradise”I want to go homeFeel the love I had once knownBut they won’t let me.They love me, so they say.Well do you call loveBeing treated as a slave?“Stop being selfish”They tell me thisWhile all my lifeI’m the one who’s always giving“If you love us, you’ll stay”What about me?You say you love meBut you treat me this wayPlease let me goIf not, I […]
I want to hide from the worldHide from these dreadful facesGo back to the place where I call homeThe place that’s full of warm embraces Everything’s changedCan’t even go backDon’t know where they wentMaybe… I could just wear a mask Please, save meTake me back to where I belongTake me back to the friendly smilesBack to the place where I’m never alone All I do is weepWeep so silently […]
Trapped in this unknownSupposed to be paradiseCan’t go backTo the place you once knewAlthough you’re already pleadingThey really won’t let you Be happyThey sayWhat do they know?You can reach out to themSo they sayBut every time you tryThey just turn their backs on you You weep and you begThey pretend they can’t hear youYou pray and hopeYou scream your heart outUntil you use up everything you have So you […]
Come with meTeach me the waysYou are so much wiserYou’ll help me through the daysYou’ve been with meWhen I cried insideYou’ve healed meAnd made the pain subsideI wish you never left meIt hurts me so muchBut I’ll cherish foreverThe memories of usYou taught me thingsThat helped me realizeI can stand on my own two feetI have the strength inside
I wanted to fly high and be freeI wanted to solve life’s mysteriesThere was so much I could doBut in one single day it all blew Away I went to rejoin the skyWatching all the others’ lives pass byI could say I was freeSince pain wasn’t there to deceive me But then again I was lonelyFloating around the worldI realized then the greatest thingLife – embrace what it brings […]
I’m making this hellAnd you say you hate meBut you don’t want me to go awayBut if I stay longerYou’re gonna go to the extremesAnd I will too…I know you know what’s on my mindAnd still you sayI have to stayAnd then what?Continue to make both our worldsA living hell?Why can’t you just let me go backI didn’t want to be here.You’re the one who pushed meInto being hereWe […]
I forgot how to have funI forgot how to live under the sunI forgot how to live dangerouslyI forgot how to disagreeI forgot how to talk with my friendsI forgot how to pretendI forgot how to love someoneI forgot how it feels to be loved
I’ll leave this place that I’ve grown to loveThe peacefulness which is calmingThe people who have shown me how to riseHow to be myself… I’m going to go and live a new lifeIn a new world full of new facesFaces of strangers that I will meetBut faces I’ll leave behind soon I’ll make the most out of the lasting momentsCherish everything that comesI’m glad to be hereI know I’ll […]
Seconds that passAre thousands of yearsStomachs growlingEyes filled with tears Believers stand upAnd find a wayThe hopeless sit downAnd wait for their day The mother hugs her childTells her it’s okayThe father sets offAnd takes their money away Some share foodTo others with gleeSome keep it to themselvesAnd watch people die in misery.