Im just punch drunk in love with youits hardwired in my brain alreadyto think of you and be in love and crazy im just a fool waiting for your every moveto see if you would come to meto see if you would rescue me ive gone through the valleysof the shadow of death and upon my returnthere you are at rest waiting for me, waiting desperatelybut still you leave […]
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and i say upon to you and everyonethat whatever you believe in will be the truthwhatever they say will be the realityso everything is a possibility and i know that the world has limitsthat hinder one from growing and learningbut these limits are set in place to controlso everyone will not know everyone will not know the truth of all lifeas it is hidden away with the powers of […]
For too long I have been blindBy my own forceI dare not see beyond the realityThat you are not mine anymoreI turn my head the other wayTo be able to see only youAnd the love we shared togetherBut now, it’s not the truthI don’t even love youLike the way I used toBut why do I still cling to youWhy do I still miss youYou say I’m in your heartand […]
Sitting here, staring at the watch of timeI think about the love through you and meWith all our immaculate crimesI dream of grazing your cheek in mineWhile my soul gets lost and drunk in your scentI lose all control of my whole being, my mind pentThe eyes are too blind to see the beautyIn the hope that runs deep but forgotten
circumstances will change all around you, but you will remain you You are stronger than what you have made yourself believe I’m done with things I have no control over. My main focus right now is ME and how I can make myself grow. I’m through with all these fucked up things that I do. Just get out of my way, I know where I’m headed and I’ll get […]
I remember reading this story in my high school English class… about a man who enters a cave and upon coming out, he could no longer relate to the other people as they have not seen what he has seen. Detached from others’ reality but at the same time, understanding everything, people could not comprehend him nor can he try to make others understand. This is exactly the way […]
Stab me until all my blood gush out on the floorAnd taint everything redChoke me until all the words that I knowWill be left unsaidSuffocate me so my breathing will stopAnd my heart slows down to dieRelease me from all this pain and sufferingThat every day makes me cryAll the life is gone from me nowAs I stop caring for myselfThey say life is meaningful but from where I […]
I cry for all the pain and sufferingIn this world full of hateI cry for all the love lostTrapped forever in fate I cry for all the goodnessThat have subsided with timeI cry for all the memoriesThat will fade away… I cry for everything.Nothing’s the same. Aug 7 2005
I am alone in this crazy whirlpoolWith no one here to guide me every dayBut I know it’s my fault you don’t come to meI just push people away I am afraid that you’ll just use mePretending to be a real friendI know I shouldn’t feel like thisBut I think it’s the wait it’ll end Do you think I can trust after what I’ve been throughDo you think I […]
He lives but does not live at allHe cries but it isn’t for joyHe is alone with tears in his eyesPretending to be happy with all the lies So they have won but he still has hopeThat his dearest is still aliveHe hugs his toy hoping someday she’d callTo say that she didn’t leave his side 2005
I can’t take it anymore, I’m suffocatingIn this world full of pride & hate, I’m dissipatingI’ve been through hell and pain that burns meI’m going through terror and shame that’s killing meI want to tear my flesh to ease the pain insideTo release me from my torment that I try so hard to hideI need to get away from the trouble that binds meI have to be set free […]
Other Ramblings Once I was very angry that almost everything in this world is unfair. Now I am still angry because the same things are still happening and little change has occurred. I want to live in a world where things are not based on money and power, a world where everyone is harmonious and in peace. People that do things for a reason would be able to do […]
Remember the times when we used to stare at a world way beyond our reachThey’ve all gone now, with you, with meCould you still feel the security and warmness wrapped in each embraceDo you think they would ever come back and be the same
Stuck here feeling emptyEnvious of those around meThey pushed through and became happyWhile I sit here regrettingWith a heavy heart I mournA little part of me dies with a turnFeeling panicky with sorrowLike I wouldn’t wanna be here tomorrowWhat should I do to make this feeling goBefore I let somebody know May 25 2003
Added to MSR 030311Originally written 2003 Dread and fear, uneasiness flowed like ice through my veins. Why am I here? What have I gotten myself into? The black velvet sky hovered over me like an omen, the cold, harsh wind cut through my face like a knife. I had weaseled my way out from an uneventful afternoon just a few hours earlier with very little difficulty. My homeboy, Brandin, […]
Originally written in 2003 With the moonlight guiding her path alone, Asteri wandered through the shore of Mackdow. Crystal tears illuminating her pale, melancholy face. It was the end, she thought. Earlier, she had gotten in a fight with her mother. Asteri was on her way home thinking she would go to Apollo’s house to surprise him on his birthday. “Mother, may I go somewhere?” Asteri asked. Her mother […]
Here I am again, trying to calm myself of the pain I feel insideListening to songs that make me feel that I really don’t want to die These songs give me hope and faith that something good is waitingSomething that I have dreamed of since I was a young girl, dreaming Trying to walk away even for just a while from realityAnd going to a place where there is […]
There’s this emptiness in meThat I just can’t quite comprehendThere’s this feeling of inadequacyAnd I know it’s not something to defend People do great thingsWhen will my time comeWhen will it be my turnTo shine? Feb 24 2003
I try not to pick up the receiverFor fear of what awaits me…I have hope inside that we’ll work through this somehowBut I don’t think it’s the right time for meTo give up everything I have worked hard for.Feb 24 2003 Now I know where I standAnd the waiting has stopped for meI am now once again in a heavy landI knew that misery soon would soon beMay 19 […]
The heavens collapsed over my numb body.But still, I can feel.I feel its weight over me. Pain.It travels around my whole being.I want to escape. I can’t. I try to scream for help but nothing comes out of me.I can hear. I can hear the waters coming.They’re coming in great waves. It drowns me. Now, I’m totally numb. No one’s here to save me. I am alone. Darkness eats […]