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Basic anxiety is what we feel in an environment that is not nurturing. We feel helpless and in turn, develop the interpersonal strategies of defense, with one being a lot more dominant than the other two. There are three interpersonal strategies of defense: the compliant solution, the expansive solutions and detachment. The compliant solution focuses on looking for love in the world. It moves towards people and depends on […]

The dark side that they are referring to is actually the shadow in Jungian ideas and is one of the major archetypes (elements in unconscious that pave the way for us in how to respond to things). The shadow is the place where we hold repressed memories and materials from consciousness. We are not directly aware of them but they are indirectly influencing our lives. It is not negative […]

Come to me as we travel through the starsCome to me as we gather all the thoughts and dreamsSail with me to the heavens where we imagineThat everything is better than our realityHold my hand as we walk through the landFilled with wonders we never thought we hadDon’t let go as run through the valleys of emptinessAs we face out true destinies Share my heart as we grow apartRemember […]

There are times when I feel sadnessrush through me And in my despair & desolation &frustration, I give in There are times when I whimperand cry and scream And in my lonely reverie, mysoul creeps Out of me into the wildand I distance myself from everything Sometimes I lose my mind, my thoughts,my dreams…It elopes with all the fantasies Left behind, my body diesas one by one my limbs […]

It’s amazing how life could be so unbearable one day and so pleasurable the next. “Life is full of surprises” isn’t just a cliché but very, very true. We could end up in a situation that we never even thought about happening any second. Our minds are so limited in our present thinking but as we understand new concepts and perspectives, we are blown away. Everything is possible… even […]

I cry for all the pain and sufferingIn this world full of hateI cry for all the love lostTrapped forever in fateI cry for all the goodnessThat have subsided with timeI cry for all the memoriesThat will fade away…I cry for everything.Nothing’s the same. Stuck here feeling emptyEnvious of those around meThey pushed through and became happyWhile I sit here regrettingWith a heavy heart I mournA little part of […]

How To Stop Being A Burden There are times when we feel like all we do is just for nothing. That nobody acknowledges anything we accomplish, that everyone only sees our mistakes. We feel as if everything we do, even breathing, makes other people’s lives harder, that we do not contribute anything good. We feel as if they are better off without us and that we should not be […]

It is never too late to be what you might have been. – George Eliot I could have been this by now, I could have done that by now, I could have accomplished so many things. These words are no strangers to us. We often look at everything that we haven’t done, look at all the goals we set for ourselves that we haven’t met. We compare ourselves to […]

How can we have everything we want and still not be happy? If you have everything you wanted and you’re still not happy… maybe it’s because those things you thought you wanted, you didn’t want in the first place. So if you are in this situation, rethink what your life is… maybe you are happy. You just have to look at what you have and if you still aren’t, […]

I’m not special. Whatever I can or was supposed to do, somebody else will get it done. I am just damaged goods. Why should I continue to live and spread unhappiness? I want to stop being a burden to other people… You say, change yourself… How can I when I do not have the desire to? I do not want to deal with all the bullshit in this world… […]

The most important lesson, and useful lesson, that I have learned in my life so far is that there is really nobody else that I can rely on except for myself. Everyone will fuck us over at least once in our life. But can we really blame them? No. Because that is the way people are. We are just all doing things that will benefit us in one form […]

Why am I feeling like this?There is this person who loves meAnd I feel like I want to be with himBut only when he’s not around I’ve felt like this beforeAnd I pushed them all awayIs it because I still loveThe person in my past? He’s the only one whom I reallyFell in love with.I can’t understand myself… I was longing for someone andHere he is now…Am I going […]

I have such a wonderful thoughtDancing around my headIs it something to write aboutSomething worth to be shared I cling on to the thoughtWith all my mightForcing it to stayTill I get on through the night Hoping it would lastAnd find its way on a bookNot like the other thoughts I hadOne minute was all it took Now I grasp clearlyAnd hold it close to my heartBut now it’s […]

Quickly you came, did something newCrazy, in so many ways I can’t explainIt baffles me the way you carry yourselfAnd somehow I know I won’t be the sameWithin your presence I’m captivated by you…I’m captivated by everything you do… Why do you have so much power over me as to entrap me in your world and make me forget about everything… But you are so different from the guy […]

Crying ChildThe rain is pouring hard outsideAnd it makes me think that this sweet child of mineIs longing for someone to holdTo save and protect her from the cold Day and NightDayBright, wonderfulArresting, alleviating, radiatingSun and moon crossingCreeping, misleading, engulfingDark, silentNight DiamondsDiamondsBeautiful, sorrowfulTwinkling, falling, extremely deceivingPuts the tantalizing twinkle in your eyeTears

Added to MSR: 03.03.11 I’m killing myself. Do we ever really learn? What keeps us holding on to something—and what keeps us from letting go? There are questions we don’t ask, answers we chase endlessly, and nothing ever seems to relieve the pain. The ache. The quiet frustration. Why do we let ourselves suffer? Lately, every time I talk to him, he feels distant. Disconnected. I’ve known this was […]

Added to MSR 030311Originally written in 2003 Malaika sat there in the corner of her bathroom looking at her swollen wrists, then at the knife, then back to her wrists. She does not cry about the pain, but then she cries because she is a coward. She can not do it. But please send someone to save her, she feels alone. Her mother can’t even hear her pain, though […]

Stop “Finding Yourself”, Take Life by the Horns and CREATE Yourself Ever since I was a little girl, I have always heard phrases and sayings from different people, books, magazines and shows on how to “find yourself.” Try different things, explore your options, and look for the things or activities that complete who you are. We hear songs and stories about people trying to look for themselves and waste […]

what is the sound of a broken heartand what do you hear when your world falls apartwhen you walk all alone through the city nightslistening and hearing and seeing frightsliving in your soul and trying to break freefrom all the constraints that you’ve put on mewhere everything feels like a hellish blisswhere everything feels like it’s full of shitall the lies and hypocrisies surround your beingyou try to see […]

IWe should not stay in places we are not happy being in. We should cease to do things we are unhappy of doing. We should live life doing things we enjoy to do. We shold live life thinking of me and you… not wrong. IISomeday we will realize all the faults and all the stupidity that we have put ourselves and others through. Someday we will see the things […]