circumstances will change all around you, but you will remain you You are stronger than what you have made yourself believe I’m done with things I have no control over. My main focus right now is ME and how I can make myself grow. I’m through with all these fucked up things that I do. Just get out of my way, I know where I’m headed and I’ll get […]
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I remember reading this story in my high school English class… about a man who enters a cave and upon coming out, he could no longer relate to the other people as they have not seen what he has seen. Detached from others’ reality but at the same time, understanding everything, people could not comprehend him nor can he try to make others understand. This is exactly the way […]
Stab me until all my blood gush out on the floorAnd taint everything redChoke me until all the words that I knowWill be left unsaidSuffocate me so my breathing will stopAnd my heart slows down to dieRelease me from all this pain and sufferingThat every day makes me cryAll the life is gone from me nowAs I stop caring for myselfThey say life is meaningful but from where I […]
I cry for all the pain and sufferingIn this world full of hateI cry for all the love lostTrapped forever in fate I cry for all the goodnessThat have subsided with timeI cry for all the memoriesThat will fade away… I cry for everything.Nothing’s the same. Aug 7 2005
I am alone in this crazy whirlpoolWith no one here to guide me every dayBut I know it’s my fault you don’t come to meI just push people away I am afraid that you’ll just use mePretending to be a real friendI know I shouldn’t feel like thisBut I think it’s the wait it’ll end Do you think I can trust after what I’ve been throughDo you think I […]
He lives but does not live at allHe cries but it isn’t for joyHe is alone with tears in his eyesPretending to be happy with all the lies So they have won but he still has hopeThat his dearest is still aliveHe hugs his toy hoping someday she’d callTo say that she didn’t leave his side 2005
I can’t take it anymore, I’m suffocatingIn this world full of pride & hate, I’m dissipatingI’ve been through hell and pain that burns meI’m going through terror and shame that’s killing meI want to tear my flesh to ease the pain insideTo release me from my torment that I try so hard to hideI need to get away from the trouble that binds meI have to be set free […]
Other Ramblings Once I was very angry that almost everything in this world is unfair. Now I am still angry because the same things are still happening and little change has occurred. I want to live in a world where things are not based on money and power, a world where everyone is harmonious and in peace. People that do things for a reason would be able to do […]
Remember the times when we used to stare at a world way beyond our reachThey’ve all gone now, with you, with meCould you still feel the security and warmness wrapped in each embraceDo you think they would ever come back and be the same
Stuck here feeling emptyEnvious of those around meThey pushed through and became happyWhile I sit here regrettingWith a heavy heart I mournA little part of me dies with a turnFeeling panicky with sorrowLike I wouldn’t wanna be here tomorrowWhat should I do to make this feeling goBefore I let somebody know May 25 2003
Added to MSR 030311Originally written 2003 Dread and fear, uneasiness flowed like ice through my veins. Why am I here? What have I gotten myself into? The black velvet sky hovered over me like an omen, the cold, harsh wind cut through my face like a knife. I had weaseled my way out from an uneventful afternoon just a few hours earlier with very little difficulty. My homeboy, Brandin, […]
Originally written in 2003 With the moonlight guiding her path alone, Asteri wandered through the shore of Mackdow. Crystal tears illuminating her pale, melancholy face. It was the end, she thought. Earlier, she had gotten in a fight with her mother. Asteri was on her way home thinking she would go to Apollo’s house to surprise him on his birthday. “Mother, may I go somewhere?” Asteri asked. Her mother […]
Here I am again, trying to calm myself of the pain I feel insideListening to songs that make me feel that I really don’t want to die These songs give me hope and faith that something good is waitingSomething that I have dreamed of since I was a young girl, dreaming Trying to walk away even for just a while from realityAnd going to a place where there is […]
There’s this emptiness in meThat I just can’t quite comprehendThere’s this feeling of inadequacyAnd I know it’s not something to defend People do great thingsWhen will my time comeWhen will it be my turnTo shine?
I try not to pick up the receiverFor fear of what awaits me…I have hope inside that we’ll work through this somehowBut I don’t think it’s the right time for meTo give up everything I have worked hard for.
I am a dreamer. I like to sit and look out the window early in the morning while the noise of everything around me still sleeps I like looking out the window and seeing the soft light of the sun, the clouds, and the smell of fresh morning air And from there, my heart, mind, and soul wanders off into the silence and dreams I only think about the […]
I try to go outside there thinking everything’s okayHoping to make people believe that nothing’s wrong todayThey can only see happiness through my eyesEveryday I’m getting better, making them believe in lies Sometimes I fool myself into thinking I’m fine tooBut then I crumble up inside of me, cryingI like to think that the pain I feel has been reducedSooner or later though… it haunts me, winning It caught […]
The most important lesson, and useful lesson, that I have learned in my life so far is that there is really nobody else that I can rely on except for myself. Everyone will fuck us over at least once in our life. But can we really blame them? No. Because that is the way people are. We are just all doing things that will benefit us in one form […]
How can you survive when hope is not present? When everything is meaningless and points to a dead end? How do you go on when nothing is worth the pain and suffering? With a society based on facts, everything is a contradiction. What happens when we die? Fact is: nobody knows; therefore, we cannot assume that we just die. That there is nothing out there. Can you prove that […]
He’s attacking me. No one’s in the room but the two of us. He has a gun. And I have my HANDS. He’s right in front of me now. He’s gonna pull the trigger… I grab the gun. I got it! I can’t believe I did that. I point the gun at him. I shoot him. He lies down on the bed in the corner of the room. I […]