Added to MSR 030311Originally written 2003 Dread and fear, uneasiness flowed like ice through my veins. Why am I here? What have I gotten myself into? The black velvet sky hovered over me like an omen, the cold, harsh wind cut through my face like a knife. I had weaseled my way out from an uneventful afternoon just a few hours earlier with very little difficulty. My homeboy, Brandin, […]
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Originally written in 2003 With the moonlight guiding her path alone, Asteri wandered through the shore of Mackdow. Crystal tears illuminating her pale, melancholy face. It was the end, she thought. Earlier, she had gotten in a fight with her mother. Asteri was on her way home thinking she would go to Apollo’s house to surprise him on his birthday. “Mother, may I go somewhere?” Asteri asked. Her mother […]
Here I am again, trying to calm myself of the pain I feel insideListening to songs that make me feel that I really don’t want to die These songs give me hope and faith that something good is waitingSomething that I have dreamed of since I was a young girl, dreaming Trying to walk away even for just a while from realityAnd going to a place where there is […]
There’s this emptiness in meThat I just can’t quite comprehendThere’s this feeling of inadequacyAnd I know it’s not something to defend People do great thingsWhen will my time comeWhen will it be my turnTo shine?
I try not to pick up the receiverFor fear of what awaits me…I have hope inside that we’ll work through this somehowBut I don’t think it’s the right time for meTo give up everything I have worked hard for.
I am a dreamer. I like to sit and look out the window early in the morning while the noise of everything around me still sleeps I like looking out the window and seeing the soft light of the sun, the clouds, and the smell of fresh morning air And from there, my heart, mind, and soul wanders off into the silence and dreams I only think about the […]
I try to go outside there thinking everything’s okayHoping to make people believe that nothing’s wrong todayThey can only see happiness through my eyesEveryday I’m getting better, making them believe in lies Sometimes I fool myself into thinking I’m fine tooBut then I crumble up inside of me, cryingI like to think that the pain I feel has been reducedSooner or later though… it haunts me, winning It caught […]
The most important lesson, and useful lesson, that I have learned in my life so far is that there is really nobody else that I can rely on except for myself. Everyone will fuck us over at least once in our life. But can we really blame them? No. Because that is the way people are. We are just all doing things that will benefit us in one form […]
How can you survive when hope is not present? When everything is meaningless and points to a dead end? How do you go on when nothing is worth the pain and suffering? With a society based on facts, everything is a contradiction. What happens when we die? Fact is: nobody knows; therefore, we cannot assume that we just die. That there is nothing out there. Can you prove that […]
He’s attacking me. No one’s in the room but the two of us. He has a gun. And I have my HANDS. He’s right in front of me now. He’s gonna pull the trigger… I grab the gun. I got it! I can’t believe I did that. I point the gun at him. I shoot him. He lies down on the bed in the corner of the room. I […]
The heavens collapsed over my numb body.But still, I can feel.I feel its weight over me. Pain.It travels around my whole being.I want to escape. I can’t. I try to scream for help but nothing comes out of me.I can hear. I can hear the waters coming.They’re coming in great waves. It drowns me. Now, I’m totally numb. No one’s here to save me. I am alone. Darkness eats […]
Tears fall downWhile I sit there in silence“Why are you crying?”It wasn’t making senseI thought you were strongIt didn’t mean a thingFor the first time in my life, I criedWithout knowing whyDid I lose my wings?
Sadness came over me last nightIt made me realized that I haven’t got my dreamShowed that haven’t done a thing to make it trueAnd now all that makes me feel blue I failed to make the best in meIt’s all because I did not seeThat I have to chase and grasp it with my handsOnly now, when it’s a little bit late, do I understand Now I’m working hard […]
It’s hard to be waiting for the time to comeWhen I’ll be flying in the sky once againHow can I make time go significantly fasterAnd make the day I’ll be free seem like tomorrowSo many months of suffering in this perfect placeI expected I would be free from my pastBut I realize I can never eraseThere are many obstacles that I must face before that dayWhen I’ll be going […]
Can I just go and never come backPlease let me leave without any tracksThe people are eating me up insideAnd nobody seems to be by my sideNothing matters right now anymoreAnd I’m more than ready to walk out the doorThis life seems too cruel all the timeI haven’t seen the sun shinePlease let me go, I have nothing to shareThe pain burning me is too much to bearIf one […]
I see her like no one else could with just their eyesI see her blank face covered with lies She was granted wings to let her go freeBut still she couldn’t fly, she couldn’t flee The elves took her feet so she couldn’t walkThe trolls took her voice so she couldn’t talk Her hands chopped off so she would not writeAbout the truths in the world, about the fights […]
I have such a wonderful thoughtDancing around my headIs it something to write aboutSomething worth to be shared I cling on to the thoughtWith all my mightForcing it to stayTill I get on through the night Hoping it would lastAnd find its way on a bookNot like the other thoughts I hadOne minute was all it took Now I grasp clearlyAnd hold it close to my heartBut now it’s […]
Now I know where I standAnd the waiting has stopped for meI am now once again in a heavy landI knew that misery soon would soon be
She leans across the golden hillWith her eyes filled with wonderHer mood changes with every willHer spirit starts to ponder What could be beyond those treesThat sit and stare beneath usThere could be some miseryThat lurks in the ground upon us She sees a land of happinessAnd hears the song they singShe breaths the air of purityAnd wonders what this could mean
I am left outIn the darkAlone and afraidSusceptible to harm They all come and goLike others did so long agoThey all come very slowThen they let the wind blow Friends they sayAre precious beingsBut why is itThat it’s all they are seeing? The waters tumble in and aroundThe thunders shock me from my groundThe sea is drying up on meFor once in my life let me be free They […]