Sometimes there’s a deep, very old craving for someone’s love, approval, and understanding. There can also be a long history of getting little hits of love that was mixed with manipulation and invalidation. Then it trained a body and mind that remembers the high and the crash that even today still sometimes wonders if one more hit will finally be the good one. When we crave their love but […]
manipulation
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She wanted me to smile through things that caused me painShe wanted to erase everything i ever namedShe wanted me small so she wouldn’t ever fearShe wanted control and pretended to hear Instead she left me in a lifetime of doubt and sorrowAnd filled the spaces with abandonment and shallowWords replace where love used to beAs i let go of her chains permanently
she didn’t teach me how to trust myselfshe taught me how to second guess myselfevery feeling, every boundaryevery memory, every truth it hurts, it breaks my heartbut i see it nowand i won’t let it continue
The most important lesson, and useful lesson, that I have learned in my life so far is that there is really nobody else that I can rely on except for myself. Everyone will fuck us over at least once in our life. But can we really blame them? No. Because that is the way people are. We are just all doing things that will benefit us in one form […]
Guys fleeTo her like fliesShe has everyoneNo one can deny She amuses themWith her wit and charmThey all laughIn countless swarms Guys loveHer humor and allThey all catch herWhen she falls She leads them all onHiding a pocket full of knivesThey succumb to herEvery desire