I try to go outside there thinking everything’s okayHoping to make people believe that nothing’s wrong todayThey can only see happiness through my eyesEveryday I’m getting better, making them believe in lies Sometimes I fool myself into thinking I’m fine tooBut then I crumble up inside of me, cryingI like to think that the pain I feel has been reducedSooner or later though… it haunts me, winning It caught […]
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The most important lesson, and useful lesson, that I have learned in my life so far is that there is really nobody else that I can rely on except for myself. Everyone will fuck us over at least once in our life. But can we really blame them? No. Because that is the way people are. We are just all doing things that will benefit us in one form […]
How can you survive when hope is not present? When everything is meaningless and points to a dead end? How do you go on when nothing is worth the pain and suffering? With a society based on facts, everything is a contradiction. What happens when we die? Fact is: nobody knows; therefore, we cannot assume that we just die. That there is nothing out there. Can you prove that […]
He’s attacking me. No one’s in the room but the two of us. He has a gun. And I have my HANDS. He’s right in front of me now. He’s gonna pull the trigger… I grab the gun. I got it! I can’t believe I did that. I point the gun at him. I shoot him. He lies down on the bed in the corner of the room. I […]
The heavens collapsed over my numb body.But still, I can feel.I feel its weight over me. Pain.It travels around my whole being.I want to escape. I can’t. I try to scream for help but nothing comes out of me.I can hear. I can hear the waters coming.They’re coming in great waves. It drowns me. Now, I’m totally numb. No one’s here to save me. I am alone. Darkness eats […]
Tears fall downWhile I sit there in silence“Why are you crying?”It wasn’t making senseI thought you were strongIt didn’t mean a thingFor the first time in my life, I criedWithout knowing whyDid I lose my wings?
Sadness came over me last nightIt made me realized that I haven’t got my dreamShowed that haven’t done a thing to make it trueAnd now all that makes me feel blue I failed to make the best in meIt’s all because I did not seeThat I have to chase and grasp it with my handsOnly now, when it’s a little bit late, do I understand Now I’m working hard […]
It’s hard to be waiting for the time to comeWhen I’ll be flying in the sky once againHow can I make time go significantly fasterAnd make the day I’ll be free seem like tomorrowSo many months of suffering in this perfect placeI expected I would be free from my pastBut I realize I can never eraseThere are many obstacles that I must face before that dayWhen I’ll be going […]
Can I just go and never come backPlease let me leave without any tracksThe people are eating me up insideAnd nobody seems to be by my sideNothing matters right now anymoreAnd I’m more than ready to walk out the doorThis life seems too cruel all the timeI haven’t seen the sun shinePlease let me go, I have nothing to shareThe pain burning me is too much to bearIf one […]
I see her like no one else could with just their eyesI see her blank face covered with lies She was granted wings to let her go freeBut still she couldn’t fly, she couldn’t flee The elves took her feet so she couldn’t walkThe trolls took her voice so she couldn’t talk Her hands chopped off so she would not writeAbout the truths in the world, about the fights […]
I have such a wonderful thoughtDancing around my headIs it something to write aboutSomething worth to be shared I cling on to the thoughtWith all my mightForcing it to stayTill I get on through the night Hoping it would lastAnd find its way on a bookNot like the other thoughts I hadOne minute was all it took Now I grasp clearlyAnd hold it close to my heartBut now it’s […]
Now I know where I standAnd the waiting has stopped for meI am now once again in a heavy landI knew that misery soon would soon be
She leans across the golden hillWith her eyes filled with wonderHer mood changes with every willHer spirit starts to ponder What could be beyond those treesThat sit and stare beneath usThere could be some miseryThat lurks in the ground upon us She sees a land of happinessAnd hears the song they singShe breaths the air of purityAnd wonders what this could mean
I am left outIn the darkAlone and afraidSusceptible to harm They all come and goLike others did so long agoThey all come very slowThen they let the wind blow Friends they sayAre precious beingsBut why is itThat it’s all they are seeing? The waters tumble in and aroundThe thunders shock me from my groundThe sea is drying up on meFor once in my life let me be free They […]
Guys fleeTo her like fliesShe has everyoneNo one can deny She amuses themWith her wit and charmThey all laughIn countless swarms Guys loveHer humor and allThey all catch herWhen she falls She leads them all onHiding a pocket full of knivesThey succumb to herEvery desire
As the diamonds roll down slowlyI slip into the darknessIt seems as if no one is aliveMy heart is not of pure satin sheetsMy soul is now just of heavy mist I feel empty and astrayThis road I’m taking is beginning to fallI must find a new wayTo survive amidst these thingsBut how can I go on if my spirit clings As my thoughts rot beneath the silver cloudsThe […]
Pinangarap ko ang kaligayahanNa alam kong magkakatotooNgunit sa aking puso ay may pagasaNa parang bituing kumikislapSa puso ko’y ito’y mananatiliHanggang ako’y lumipas na
Sometimes I screamI scream so hardAnd wait for someone who’ll hearBut everytime I waitNo one comes to save meMy screams are little tearsMy little tearsWhich I hold so dearlyThese tears are diamondsBut only I notice thatSo I am aloneWith no one to shareThese diamonds with
Eyes that reflect the soul of oneEyes that show the madness beyondEyes that shed diamonds of a remorseful godEyes that smile when goodness is doneEyes that spread happiness and loveEyes that believe everythingWill be alright when all is gone
If I don’t speak of words I feelYou hurt meIf I speak of words I feelStill you hurt meI can’t stand thisWhat do you really want?You don’t really want the best for meYou only care for yourselfYou only want me to speak of words you want to hearWhy are you doing this to me?