You’re right here. Still breathing and tryingand loving and still showing upEven when everything hurtsor even when there’sno clear next step So what do you do? You stay with yourselfYou do the next thingNot the whole planor the forever fixJust the next simple thing You let yourself hate that it’s like thisYou let the grief come through without shameYou stop pretending that what happened wasn’t realYou stop doubting and […]
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they chose a peace that only worksif no one questions ita faith that only functionsif nobody challenges how it’s used their faith didn’t fail youbut the way they wielded it did
being present or mindful isn’t just for othersit’s most meaningful when it’s with your own selfit’s that moment when you actually notice your own breathingwhen you notice your thoughts instead of getting lost in themwhen you feel your body and recognize that you’re here, that it’s you being present and being mindful is being receivedeven by yourselfyou aren’t just reactingyou notice yourself beingyou acknowledge your own self
was it too much to just want love?love that stays when i’m falling apartlove that stays when i make mistakeslove that stays when i question the shamewas it too much to just want to be held?held in times of sadness and despairheld in ways that did not feel like painheld in arms that feel like warmth in the rainwas it too much to just want someone there?someone who truly […]
sometimes unresolved pain rises up in us asking for wholenessnot by forcing control or simply enduringbut by surrendering and breaking freethe new path may be dark and unclearit asks for a new kind of strengthit asks for a new kind of courageit asks for a new definitiona new meaninga new beinga new lifeanew anewagain and againonce more but deeperonce more but strongeragain and more and freefree to be who […]
How could I go onWhen I have already seen the endWhere love is never enoughAnd staying is just pretendHow could I get byWhen pain is all that staysWhere hope is another knifeThat twists itself every dayHow could I have peaceWhen peace is never freeWhere it gets tradedFor a life that doesn’t see i have always lived in the darkand i have always lived in the lightand i have seen […]
I wanted to do things that actually made sensenot just obey or pretendto be able to say when something doesn’t feel rightand be met with curiosity and understandinginstead of faking a smile or being dismissedbecause I always asked whyinstead of just acceptingbecause I wantedtradition AND truthcomfort AND clarityconnection over convenienceI want to live in integrity
there’s a point where a person stops just beinga name, a story, a role, a label, a past, a trajectoryand starts becoming bigger than their outline you become something more whenyou stop asking “who am i supposed to be?”and start asking “what is trying to happen through me?” by existing fully, even when we’re told not towe start holding the world differentlyand find our own solid meaning in itone […]
not everyone wants resolutionsome people want comfort, controlclosure on their termswhere nothing has to changeexcept your silence no resolution doesn’t mean no healingit just means healing won’t come from themit means it will have to come from within youfrom the truth you holdfrom the life you buildfrom the people who see you and don’t turn awayit’s the place where their story ends in yoursand where your real one begins […]
Here I am again, trying to calm myself of the pain I feel insideListening to songs that make me feel that I really don’t want to die These songs give me hope and faith that something good is waitingSomething that I have dreamed of since I was a young girl, dreaming Trying to walk away even for just a while from realityAnd going to a place where there is […]
There’s this emptiness in meThat I just can’t quite comprehendThere’s this feeling of inadequacyAnd I know it’s not something to defend People do great thingsWhen will my time comeWhen will it be my turnTo shine?
I try not to pick up the receiverFor fear of what awaits me…I have hope inside that we’ll work through this somehowBut I don’t think it’s the right time for meTo give up everything I have worked hard for.
I am a dreamer. I like to sit and look out the window early in the morning while the noise of everything around me still sleeps I like looking out the window and seeing the soft light of the sun, the clouds, and the smell of fresh morning air And from there, my heart, mind, and soul wanders off into the silence and dreams I only think about the […]
I try to go outside there thinking everything’s okayHoping to make people believe that nothing’s wrong todayThey can only see happiness through my eyesEveryday I’m getting better, making them believe in lies Sometimes I fool myself into thinking I’m fine tooBut then I crumble up inside of me, cryingI like to think that the pain I feel has been reducedSooner or later though… it haunts me, winning It caught […]
Tears fall downWhile I sit there in silence“Why are you crying?”It wasn’t making senseI thought you were strongIt didn’t mean a thingFor the first time in my life, I criedWithout knowing whyDid I lose my wings?
Sadness came over me last nightIt made me realized that I haven’t got my dreamShowed that haven’t done a thing to make it trueAnd now all that makes me feel blue I failed to make the best in meIt’s all because I did not seeThat I have to chase and grasp it with my handsOnly now, when it’s a little bit late, do I understand Now I’m working hard […]
It’s hard to be waiting for the time to comeWhen I’ll be flying in the sky once againHow can I make time go significantly fasterAnd make the day I’ll be free seem like tomorrowSo many months of suffering in this perfect placeI expected I would be free from my pastBut I realize I can never eraseThere are many obstacles that I must face before that dayWhen I’ll be going […]
Can I just go and never come backPlease let me leave without any tracksThe people are eating me up insideAnd nobody seems to be by my sideNothing matters right now anymoreAnd I’m more than ready to walk out the doorThis life seems too cruel all the timeI haven’t seen the sun shinePlease let me go, I have nothing to shareThe pain burning me is too much to bearIf one […]
I see her like no one else could with just their eyesI see her blank face covered with lies She was granted wings to let her go freeBut still she couldn’t fly, she couldn’t flee The elves took her feet so she couldn’t walkThe trolls took her voice so she couldn’t talk Her hands chopped off so she would not writeAbout the truths in the world, about the fights […]
I have such a wonderful thoughtDancing around my headIs it something to write aboutSomething worth to be shared I cling on to the thoughtWith all my mightForcing it to stayTill I get on through the night Hoping it would lastAnd find its way on a bookNot like the other thoughts I hadOne minute was all it took Now I grasp clearlyAnd hold it close to my heartBut now it’s […]